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My heart cannot take this anymore (gay...). This line has been said so many times in many different movies, songs, and novels ever since like forever. I'm sick of it, sick of it all. I'm sick in believing in people who don't pull through, I'm sick of being a caretaker, I'm sick of this effing situation that I'm in. I was talking to a close friend the other day and they really opened up my eyes. I have always been so driven, do the right thing because in the end it'll pay off type of person. But what if it doesn't? When will it pay off? I don't need to have forever right now, just a glimpse of it. Right now I don't see an end. I sound so emo I hate this! This isn't me!!! Help me!

What I want in life: To be successful and rich and travel the world as a career.
What I want right now: Peace.. please that's all.

I'm am so grateful that I have so many great friends that just listen to me complain, try to help, hug me when I need it, and act like bitches with me when I want to be spiteful too. But I don't want to be spiteful anymore, I want to be myself, I want to find myself again because somewhere in this mess I think I lost Jocy. What we're going through is tough and no one needs this. I did my part, do yours. Behave, Respect, and Love youself, maybe me in the process as well but you have to start with you.

I'm tired, no more writing, I sound like an idiot...

Lenka - The Show

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2nTSU-mFWGs

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something I'm not

I'm a fool
Out of love
'Cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a joke
Nobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone I've tried
And I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down I know
I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show